Sometimes I need to see it

Sometimes I need to see it….

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To remember how far I’ve come.

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Embrace every part of your weight loss journey. It is in each step that we see progress.

Happy Friday Cupcakes. xo


That *IS* me on TV!

Can I just tell you all how perceptive you are?

After my 100 List post was published it wasn’t too long before I started getting the emails about #50 — I am a Weight Watchers magazine and commercial success story.  Pretty much all of them said the same thing “I THOUGHT THAT WAS YOU!!”

Yup.  That’s me.  I’m on TV.  Did you catch my 2 secs of fame?  The banner above is a still shot of my little TV moment.  But I’m getting ahead of myself.


This whole thing all started when I decided a week before Weight Watcher’s Celebrate Success contest ended, to submit my story.  It was totally on a whim.  It was late.  I couldn’t sleep so I said “What do I have to lose?” I knew it said all entries would be “considered” for a TV commercial but I was focused on the SURE THING – to win the Grand Prize $2500 NYC shopping spree.  Heck I would have been happy being one of the 100 First Prize $100 Visa Card winners.

Since I hadn’t heard anything for a few weeks after the contest ended I figured… Oh well… I tried.  No regrets (well except those Louboutin shoes that I was gonna buy with that $2500! lol). Normal life continued and I forgot about the contest.  Then on a random Monday morning, my phone rang.

“Hello?  Clara?  This is “X” from Weight Watchers.  You recently entered the Celebrate Success contest.  We not affiliated with choosing the winners of the contest but we were wondering if you would be interested in auditioning for a potential Weight Watcher’s commercial?  Clara?  Hello? Anyone there?”

I was literally speechless.  It took me a few seconds to remember I had a voice “Um… YES!! YES YES!”

Three weeks and 2 auditions later, a private town car picked me up at my house and drove me to Beverly Hills’ swanky Mr. C hotel.  The driver even had the whole chauffeur outfit on.  Complete with the hat.  I loved the hat.

There I met 11 other AMAZING castmates along with all the other thousands of people it takes to put on a production. And it was TOTALLY a production!


Enzo Angilerii (hair stylist), me and Collier Strong (makeup artist)
Two of the sweetest men you’ll ever meet.


Jennifer Harbour (WW Sr. Marketing Manager), Jory (PA), Me, Sharon Ehrlich (Creative Director), Vicky (PA) during the taping of WW Only Human YouTube project


Me and Negar Ali (wardrobe stylist).
My face is priceless. You want me to wear what now??


Here’s one of my “I have no more moves” pose.


Me and Peyton Wilson (director)


My husband and I played tourist over the weekend during non-shoot times.


Pete, Dan, Erin and me.
You probably recognize all of them from the WW #expectamazing campaign.

There are so many people I need to thank but I don’t know where to start.  From the camera crew, to the lighting crew, the producers, directors, personal assistants, contract writers, notaries, stage crew, makeup, hair, wardrobe, my castmates etc etc.  See what I mean?? 

You can see my Only Human YouTube project (here), my WW commercial (here), my direct mailer (here) and my WW magazine print (here).

It was an experience I will NEVER forget.

It doesn’t hurt to try something out of your comfort zone. You might just end up on TV!

Status Update

Hello Cupcakes!

Sorry that I left you high and dry with no forwarding address. I think my last blog update was in May *smacks hand* It was an emotional time for me so I decided instead of focusing on my blog, the number on the scale and a timeline, to readjust my personal goals to include NSWs (non-scale victories) like sticking to a 5x week exercise routine (running, pilates, yoga, zumba), eating 5-6 servings of vegetables and fruits per day, drinking at least 64oz of water per day, tracking every BLT (bite, lick, taste) diligently, going to WW meetings – no excuses – sometimes up to 3x a week! etc.

I really believe the mental adjustment helped me lose those last pesky 10lbs. As of the last 18 months, I’ve lost 62.4lbs, made WW goal on May 22, 2012, WW Lifetime on July 10, 2012, run 14-5K, 1-8K, 2-10K and 3-Half Marathons.

Thank you to all my readers for traveling on this journey with me. It has made all the difference.

Remember… You only fail if you quit. xoxo

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Putting it all out there

WARNING: This post is extremely whiny and contains cuss words.
This is my mindset right now. You’ve been warned.

I knew when I started this journey that it would be hard. But I kept reminding myself throughout the last 13 months that it would be worth it. Seeing my goal weight on the scale would be worth the frustration, the cravings, the binging, the getting-back-on-the-wagon, the exercising, the doubts, the highs, the lows etc. Don’t get me wrong! I think it still is. I’m proud of the 50+ lbs I’ve lost already. I NEVER wanna go back to FAT CLARA. Slightly overweight-almost-normal-BMI Clara is WAY better.

But I’d be lying if I said that this past week has made me start to doubt it… just a little.

I feel so close yet so far.

One of my Weight Watcher friends, Liz, posted a link to an article, How Can I Stop My Weight Loss Self-Sabotage, and 2 days later I’m still thinking about how to answer the first question.

“What has to be true in your life in order for you to sabotage your weight loss efforts?”

Here’s what I’ve come up with so far:

– When I see a new low on the scale, I subconsciously give myself permission to slack. It’s almost like if I see a gain next time I’ll know why. Something safe in guaranteed failure??

– The negative voice in my head keeps telling me that it’s been SO long that I’ll just never get there so my attitude changes from “IT’S WORTH IT!” to “EFF.THIS.SH*T”.

– I compare my weight loss journey to others and my success doesn’t measure up to their success and my “failure” turns into me eating comfort food.

– I’m a time frame girl. At first I thought I could reach my goal in 6 months, then it changed to 9 months and now 13 months later I’m still not there. If my weight loss journey was a credit card bill, I’d be paying late fees by now.

– I’m scared to reach my goal. But I really don’t know why… I want to be skinny! I want to be “normal” and not “obese”. I want to feel confident wearing everything in my closet. I want to look good naked. So why am I scared?? Right now this is a rhetorical question.

I talked with my WW leader this morning about my frustration and we decided that I should try to eat only 29DPs per day this week (no WPs or APs) to see if it gives my weight loss a jump start. I have another WW friend that only ate her DPs and lost 60 lbs in 6 months! If it worked for her, maybe it would work for these last 10 lbs for me.

But I just tracked my points for today and I went over by 13 points. *smacks head*


I need a swift kick in the arse. Any takers?

*bending over*

In doggy-on-a-diet news. Dorra has lost 5 lbs!

How to recover from a binge

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I saw this image on Pinterest and it really spoke to me.

Hello my name is Clara. And I’ve been on a 48 hour binge of cupcakes, cookies, chips, pretzels, cheez-its, chocolates… I don’t know what happened. I think being disappointed by my weight on the scale this past Tuesday really did a number on my head space. Then Valentine’s Day happened and I went a little cray cray on the sweet and salty. It’s just too easy when you’re surrounded by it.

I know it seems like I have it all figured out but I’m here to say… I DON’T! This is truly a journey. Maybe a never ending journey. I’m not perfect. I’m human. I make mistakes. I binge.

Hopefully writing it down in my blog is the first step to recovery. Now to stop giving my cravings free rent in my head. Oh and drink more water. STAT!

Yes, I can eat that!

I classify people in my life into two groups: SUPPORT or FOOD POLICE.

Support can be in the form of compliments or understanding.

Food police ask me the same question ALL.THE.FREAKING.TIME and quite frankly, after 10 months, I’m kinda over it.

“Are you sure you can eat that?”
“Are you sure you can eat that?”
“Are you sure you can eat that?”


The wonderful thing about Weight Watchers is that nothing is really off limits. But as I have continued on my journey, I’ve realized that some foods are worth the points while others are not. It’s all about making better choices. Not depriving!

Friday is “Date Night” with my husband. It doesn’t mean I need a 4 star restaurant. It just means I don’t cook and we spend time together. Tonight we decided on Chinese and a Netflix movie at home. (Can you believe I’ve never seen any Mission Impossible movies? Neither can my Husband. So before we go see MI4, Husband says I HAVE to see 1, 2 and 3 first. lol)

So to prove my point I thought I’d share my dinner.

Ten months ago I would eaten 1/2 fried rice, 1/2 chow mein, orange chicken and honey walnut shrimp. All that is 35 points!! YIKES! (Remember I only get 29DPs per day.) Now I’ve changed my choices to 1/2 steamed rice, 1/2 steam vegetables, mushroom chicken and beef with broccoli. All that is 14 points. And I rarely finish all the rice either so it’s probably even lower. Maybe closer to 10 points. Crazy what a few changes can make right?

My golden rule for take-out food: If it’s shiny, breaded, fried or all of the above, it’s probably high in calories/points! Use moderation. But if you’re like me and there’s no way you could only eat 1 piece of orange chicken, then AVOID AVOID AVOID! Instead, try something new that glistens less. HA!

Happy Friday (The 13th) readers!

♪♫ O Fitness Tree! O Fitness Tree! ♪♫

One of my fellow Weight Watcher friends, Katy, is organizing a December 30 Min Fitness Challenge via the Weight Watcher’s discussion board and my other friend Susanne, wrote about a great idea that I knew I had to combine and steal.

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You know those Christmas advent calendars that you can find all over the internet? Well I found one for free, printed it out and labeled it: O Fitness Tree. It’s a little play off the popular Christmas carol, Oh Christmas Tree. Get it?? I’m so clever.

My goal is to do AT LEAST 30 minutes of activity EVERYDAY in December. It can be as simple as walking the dog. Just something to get me off my butt during a month where delicious food runs rampage (Can you say Starbucks cranberry bliss bar??) and my chances of a gain are higher than usual. Everyday that I accomplish my goal, I’ll add another sticker to my calendar.

I’m kind of a sucker for stickers.

I bet you can guess who use to be a teacher’s pet back in the day huh?

Let the Fitness tree decorating begin… uh… tomorrow. lol

Things I’ve learned on this journey of mine

I think I’ve mentioned that I’m an WW online member. I don’t go to meetings. Nothing against meetings! I’m sure they are wonderful in the right circumstances. But online works for me for several reasons.

1. I’m a computer nerd. I live on my computer.
2. Weight Watchers has a very active online community so I feel like I have a meeting everyday rather than 1x a week.
3. I hate driving. If I ever won the lottery, I’d hire a chauffeur.

There are WW leaders, current WW members and non-WW members that are on the discussion boards. As always in an online forum, I take things with a grain of salt. As you should too. In 8 months I’ve learned a lot from the discussion boards. So I decided to write them in a blog post for my readers. It’s also a good reminder for me too.

* Great article for anyone starting the Points Plus plan — > First Steps to Success on PP+
* 3500 cals = 1 lb of fat. If you gained 4lbs one week, ask yourself if you REALLY ate
14,000 cals. You probably didn’t. Then there must be other factors involved. Maybe excess sodium, TOM, undigested food, water retention… See next.
* Here is a must read article for anyone trying to lose weight regardless of their diet lifestyle plan –> Why The Scale Lies.
* Take measurements. Take progress pictures. The scale is not your only tool.
* Healthy weight loss is 0.5-2 lbs / week. Slow and steady wins the race.
* “Waaahhh I only lost .5 lbs this week!” There is no “only” with weight loss. Would you rather it be a gain? I didn’t think so!
* “No loss is too small. No gain is irreversible.”
* Do not compare your stats to anyone else. Comparison is the thief of joy. Be inspired but remember that we are all on different weight loss journeys.
* Fruit is 0 points, but it doesn’t mean it has 0 calories.
* WW recommends 5 servings of fruits AND vegetables per day. Did you know a banana could be 2 servings? Size does matter! Know your serving size!
* Eat to satisfaction does not mean eat until you are stuffed.
* If you feel hungry, drink some water first. You might be mistaking your hunger pain for thirst.
* Your age, how much you have to lose, genetics, environment are all factors in trying to lose weight.
* “Order first when dining out—there will be less temptation from hearing what others order.” ~Christina, WW success story
* Why am I gaining weight with exercise?
* Milk Matters
* Weekly points are NOT extra points. They are part of the plan. Do not feel guilty eating them.
* Wendie can help you if you reach a plateau or need some point spread guidance. Read more (here) and (here)
* Add activity to your life but be honest if you are eating your APs. Do you really need to eat that cookie if you earn APs for laundry? I never count APs for anything unless I put my sports bra on. But that’s just me.
* There is no exercise you can do to spot reduce (short of surgery aka liposuction). I guess I’ll lose my stubborn thigh fat when it’s good and ready.
* How are you calculating your APs? I use my Heart Rate Monitor because I feel like it takes my intensity bias out of the equation. I use 80 cals burned = 1 AP. This is not officially endorsed by WW but it works for me. If you don’t have a HRM, use the activity calculator using duration of time and intensity. To determine intensity: LOW-You can talk or sing; your breathing is regular, MODERATE-You can talk, but you can’t sing. You breathe often and deeply, HIGH-You can talk briefly, but you can’t sing. You breathe rapidly and deeply. I think the activity calculator is more accurate that the activity database search but I prefer a HRM over both of them.
* Water, water, water!!
* Is your goal realistic? Consult your dr to help you answer that question.
* Eat real food. This is not a diet. This is a lifestyle change. Are you going to eat salads for the rest of your life?
* Starvation mode is a myth. Weight Watchers says so.
* Eating more to lose weight. –> Myth? I don’t know but I eat all my DPs and all my WPs and I’m happy with my losses.
* If you have the nutritional information available, use your calculator to determine the points. The food search is mostly generic points and works in a pinch but a point off here and there can add up.
* You lose weight in the kitchen. You get fit at the gym. You can’t run off a bad diet. Trust me. I’ve tried!
* Gains are a natural part of weight loss. Our bodies are not simple. They are complex machines. Do not let it discourage you. At the time of writing this post, I’ve had 31 losses, 1 maintain and 6 gains. But do you see the gains in my picture? As long as the trend is down, you will reach your goal.
* “Muscle weighs more than fat.” Well sorta. Ok not really. 1 lb of muscle = 1 lb of fat. But muscle is more dense. Confused now? If you are a visual learner like me, check out THIS link.
* Forgive yourself. We’re human. We make mistakes. What defines your weight loss journey is what you do next.
* Actions not excuses.
* Motivation is overrated. Don’t forget there’s also determination.
* Take it one day at a time. One meal at a time. Time is on your side.
* Finish Last > Did Not Finish > Did Not Start
* Strive for perseverance not perfection.
* You only fail if you quit.

I will continue to add to my list since I’m still on my weight loss journey. I know there is still so much to learn.

If you have anything you want to add to my list, please email me.

Becoming one with nature.


Husband was invited to a 1 day conference in San Diego and since Veterans’ Day was on a Friday this year, we decided to turn it into a mini vacation.

We walked around Downtown San Diego for hours, ate at various local favorites (I refuse to calculate my points today! I’m sure it was scary!) and then drove to Sea Cliffs Nature Park to hike around the cliffs.

Being on those cliffs made me realize something.

The longer I am on my Weight Watcher journey the more I realize that it’s not just about the calorie deficit; It’s about realizing the person I want to be and the person I really am without my body weighing me down.

Before the old me would have stayed at the top of the cliffs watching my husband climb down to the edge b/c I didn’t have the energy to go and I didn’t want to be in any pictures.

The new me wasn’t waiting anymore.

The sea air was crisp. The rock formations were awesome. The views were breathtaking. I swear I saw a seal. But my husband thinks it was a bird. lol

Oh and… We laughed a lot.

It felt amazing to be so close to nature and sharing the experience WITH my husband.

Happy Veterans Day esp to my favorite veteran, my FIL. ♥

Thank you, Veterans. Land of the free, because of the brave.